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oh hey it's 3 am right now and i'm on here on my bed with my laptop and decided to blog!!! oh yeayy

it's been quite a while. it's 2014 now! And I'm 20 already. oh gosh where did the time go??

3rd semester in my diploma programme. 2 more to go and I'm finally starting on that degree hahaha 

hmm 

i've been working quite often at fullerton hotel as a waitress or smth.. which is smth i never though i'd ever do lol

I don't hate it but i don't necessarily enjoy serving people that much and pretending like i give a fuck, but 2 to 3 times a week- i'm good.

"Uni" life has pretty much sucked. mainly cuz i miss my jc mates so much. it's a lot harder to make friends here. or maybe its just the programme i'm in. oh wells.. 

I have friends lah but since we don't spend much time together, there's not much class bonding that takes place.

ok so what has changed since i turned 20? I'm a lot wiser.. lol no who am kidding i'm still a naive kid... maybe less heh

my madrasah place for the past 12 yrs is shutting down cuz of the ridiculous rent. so tmr is the last lesson there. and they're moving to ar raudhah next week onwards. i guess it's a good thing cuz i'll be visiting the mosque more often now:) but still...gonna miss that place.. many bittersweet memories:')

I wish I had a more interesting life. but I don't.

bye.

papa americano

HIIII

I do not know why I still update this blog.

I honestly doubt anyone reads my blog LOL... I'm not popular lah what to doo haiss.. haha

So k.. 2 weeks of school have passed. 

Made a few friends. well.. very few haha

Since we only have lectures,there's not much interaction among my classmates. And we're a damn huge class.

So yeah... 

ALOT and i repeat, ALOT of international students. more than local students. 

A very mixed bunch, i must say. Maybe I'm too used to being surrounded with nerds like myself, it's a bit hard to get used to. But so far, ok ok lah. not that bad. Just wish to make more friends in school. heh maybe join cca or smth if have la. hmm ok can

I really wanna learn to play guitar. I bought one a few years back wit my hari raya money but it's kinda broken. LOL i use it to pretend to be taylor swift once in a while hahaha

Anybody want to donate a guitar to me?? I will love youuu with all my heart.. lol 

And i'm typing ths wit my new laptop yay!!!!!

I'm so happy. it srsly looks like a macbook hehe maybe that's why i bought it

i like that it's touch screen too..pretty cool heh

k la have sch tmr.... at 12! haha k goodnight 
xoxo :)

Starting freshh

Oh heeyyyyy :) 

It's been months since I last posted here. Just realised my old template was gone. too lazy to look for another one so just change to some simple random pink one. Been diggin pink lately dunno why.. LOL

So yeah.. I've since worked at this private ed school. office job.. kinda boring but nyeah.. Least it's easy. 

But good experience though. Learned a lot about how private ed. institutions are run in singapore. this one is obviously a small one but pretty cool.

Next week I start school. At SIM.. where i'll be taking my dip in Management studies.. i knw i'm eligible for a direct degree course but i have my eye on this uk uni which only accepts diploma holders.. so going through a longer way. it's not really that long. I'll be done with my degree almost the same time my jc mates will be done with theirs. Of course mine is a bit more ex.. heh .. See laa who ask you fail gp some more. lol

So here's to a great start to my new education experience. Hope I'll enjoy every minute of it. even though i'll have classes from Monday to Saturday.. whyyyyyy.

hmm.. sshould prolly head to bed since it's 4 am in the morning right now. maaann i'm so sleepy.

k thanks for reading. Ciao! 

xoxo ;)

A LEVELS

My mind is going to explode thinking about all this. 

Last friday. I got my results. They weren't that great. Not that I expected them to be. 

ccd/c and u for gp. So basically with a U for gp, I can't go anywhere besides private U.

I was all set to repeat at first.. then i gave up.. so decided on private.

Lalala happy alrdy lah... but then. tdy happened. Not gnna really elaborate but it made me think again. Am I gonna regret this in years to come? What if I could do better? What if??? I don't want to have to ask myself this years down the road or even worse, when I'm studying. 

Can do I better? That's another question I have to ask myself. Strange thing.. I think I can. 

I made a stupid mistake on my phy paper by missing out on a 20 mark question. which got me a d (that's what she said.. haha) 

This is my opportunity for a do over. I think I can do better for Math.. a C just isn't enough in my opinion.

the rest of the subjects, I'm not sure. For gp, I'll have to put a whole lot of effort. which I didn't really do before.

I was discussing w my bro about this.. And he supports me.... But my mom.... another story. Even my dad was like... Go ahead! 

She doesn't what me to repeat cuz she isn't confident I can do better. She doesn't think I'm smart enough. Well.. that's a depressing thought. Doing this is a risk. And with my mom not supporting me in this, I don't know how. I really don't know. I don't know.

I know I was playful doing my a level days. I wasn't fully committed. Which to this day, I regret.

I need support.

I need someone to talk to.

Ya Allah, make me make the right decision. I need you.

Eh hi Wazzuppp?! I start work at 1pm today soo now I'm just chillin... doing some laundry and shitzx..

So.. I turned 19 just this Monday. Didn't do anything special on that day... Just went to work. Hahaha.

But it's fine. Got to hang out with the gfs last Friday to sort of celebrate my bday. Hahaha thankful for friends like them. And thanks mak Atiqah for the delish brownie cake. The kit kat and toblerone on top is the best haha :)

I'm doing better at work.. Gotten a bit more used to it and require less help from the SLs or whatever.

A week back, I actually cried at work cuz i was too stressed, mainly cuz my colleague was being a real bitch. I wanted to maki her right there and then... like really. She alrdy make me cry and then told the other employees and she's doing all this while serving a customer as well. What a bitch right? Ugh.

But then when I was about done, my other work mate told me she's like that one. Almost everyone hates her... All the Malaysians Melayus... and that's a lot of them.. Hahaha

She said that then I'm like ok then... I'll just ignore her.

I was still quite new and confused about a lot of things.. and for her to attack me like that.... I just wanted to punch her in the face. 

But thank god for other colleagues who understand how I feel. They just don't talk about it. I appreciate the fact that my work mate didn't tell me about the bitch's true colours until I saw it with my own eyes. She let me form an opinion on my own. That's cool. Hahaha

K la.. enough rambling. I need to get ready for work. Hope I don't hv to face that bitch.

k byeeeeee :)

Happy belated burfffday to meeeee! Heh ;)

Cold Storage

Hi. How are you? Lol like you can answer like that.
Just got back from work 2 hrs ago.
My feet like want to die alrdy.. stand too long.
I took this job thinking it was simple simple.. but wahlao turn out so complicated sia.
Last time at long jonhn want to count money after shift all very easy.. This one must sort out the credit card shit all. then must go computer key in all the nonsense..
Wow I sound very annoyed.
Maybe it's cuz I'm new. So I got kinda overwhelmed. But it's A LOT to just take in within such a short period of time. I'll only be here for a month. So...I learn all this.. and use it a while only.
I work w A TON of Malaysians.. all from JB. No Singaporean colleagues so far.
It's kinda nice to be able to communicate in Malay but I can't really talk much to them about anything. But I'm starting to talk like a Malaysian.. JB at least. They have this tone when they talk..Now i have it. damn haha
Yeah so.
I don't like listening to people complain about work.
So.. sorry heheh

After this job, I wanna tutor.. Go to an agent or smth. I really would like to use my brain a bit more.

I mean.. I don't mean to look down on these kind of jobs. but srsly.. no Singaporeans sia at my workplace! I can do a lot better.

I've taught people before and I think I can do it. just not JC level...or Math... NO MATH PLEASE!

And other thing, my customers and colleagues most of them think I very young... like 15-16 like that..

Like hello.... I'm almost 19 seeeeyhh (eeeee...why i "seh" like minah)

I don't know if it's a good thing or not.

Kkkk.. I need to sleeeeeep. Goodnight! :))
listen to this cover of trouble by walk off the earth! SOOOO NICEE!!! :D

k byeeeeeeeee

LES MIZZZZ :)

Hey! It's gonna be 2013 in a couple of hours! Can't believe it. The year just flew by.
2012 has definitely been one heck of a year.. A lot of studying, a lot of exams. I'm glad it's all over though. I hope.
I don't wanna be all deep and shit but I've learnt a lot about myself, my character.. the bad side of my character. Definitely trying to change. But oh well, gotta take one step at a time.
Need to be less uptight and more lepak. Not be so defensive and learn to take criticism well.
I don't know what exactly what I'm blabbing about but you get it right?
Hope 2013's gonna be awesome. Many things gonna happen. Results. Start of new school (Hopefully, a good one) :)
It's def gonna be new chapter of my life. Hopefully, I continue to grow and make wiser decisions.

I've yet to find a proper job. Found a super temp one. Hopefully I'll  get a better one after.
So. today I watched Les Mis with Asyiqin! My awesome choir buddy hahaha
We used to sing some of the songs in choir. So it definitely brought back tons of memories.
Anne Hathaway was amazing, even though she barely in the movie hahaha
Her performance of I dreamed a dream was flawless and just so raw. Love it.
I'm gonna be singing this a lot at home. Yes, I will. Sorry, Mom.



Wolverine(LOL) was also very good.
The girl who sang On My Own also best. I love that song so the very much. Poor thing she died :(
Heard T Swift almost got that part. Seriously the scene would a total fail with her. No offence. Imagine her singing with her guitar, about being friend zoned. Hahahaha!



My next favourite song! DO YOU HEAR THE PEOPLE SING!
This song is super epic and very inspiring. When we did the song back when i was in choir, I had no idea what this song was talking about. Just sing lor.
When the poor people stood up and sang this song together before they fought, I wanted to cry. So moving.
This is some random huge ass choir singing the song. I love love love it.



Maybe it's just me and my obsession with musicals, but I LOVE THIS MOVIE A LOT!
Some scenes definitely annoyed me. TOO MUCH SINGING! But then again, it's a movie musical so it didn't bother me that much.
I deffo wanna watch it again! And again and again and again.
AH I LOVE THIS MUSICAL!
k I need to shut up
This is one long ass post but oh well.
This is how I express myself haha
k.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! HAPPY 2013!
May it be awesome and joyous.
Love you k bye
:)