work school work

oh hey it's 3 am right now and i'm on here on my bed with my laptop and decided to blog!!! oh yeayy

it's been quite a while. it's 2014 now! And I'm 20 already. oh gosh where did the time go??

3rd semester in my diploma programme. 2 more to go and I'm finally starting on that degree hahaha 

hmm 

i've been working quite often at fullerton hotel as a waitress or smth.. which is smth i never though i'd ever do lol

I don't hate it but i don't necessarily enjoy serving people that much and pretending like i give a fuck, but 2 to 3 times a week- i'm good.

"Uni" life has pretty much sucked. mainly cuz i miss my jc mates so much. it's a lot harder to make friends here. or maybe its just the programme i'm in. oh wells.. 

I have friends lah but since we don't spend much time together, there's not much class bonding that takes place.

ok so what has changed since i turned 20? I'm a lot wiser.. lol no who am kidding i'm still a naive kid... maybe less heh

my madrasah place for the past 12 yrs is shutting down cuz of the ridiculous rent. so tmr is the last lesson there. and they're moving to ar raudhah next week onwards. i guess it's a good thing cuz i'll be visiting the mosque more often now:) but still...gonna miss that place.. many bittersweet memories:')

I wish I had a more interesting life. but I don't.

bye.

papa americano

HIIII

I do not know why I still update this blog.

I honestly doubt anyone reads my blog LOL... I'm not popular lah what to doo haiss.. haha

So k.. 2 weeks of school have passed. 

Made a few friends. well.. very few haha

Since we only have lectures,there's not much interaction among my classmates. And we're a damn huge class.

So yeah... 

ALOT and i repeat, ALOT of international students. more than local students. 

A very mixed bunch, i must say. Maybe I'm too used to being surrounded with nerds like myself, it's a bit hard to get used to. But so far, ok ok lah. not that bad. Just wish to make more friends in school. heh maybe join cca or smth if have la. hmm ok can

I really wanna learn to play guitar. I bought one a few years back wit my hari raya money but it's kinda broken. LOL i use it to pretend to be taylor swift once in a while hahaha

Anybody want to donate a guitar to me?? I will love youuu with all my heart.. lol 

And i'm typing ths wit my new laptop yay!!!!!

I'm so happy. it srsly looks like a macbook hehe maybe that's why i bought it

i like that it's touch screen too..pretty cool heh

k la have sch tmr.... at 12! haha k goodnight 
xoxo :)

Starting freshh

Oh heeyyyyy :) 

It's been months since I last posted here. Just realised my old template was gone. too lazy to look for another one so just change to some simple random pink one. Been diggin pink lately dunno why.. LOL

So yeah.. I've since worked at this private ed school. office job.. kinda boring but nyeah.. Least it's easy. 

But good experience though. Learned a lot about how private ed. institutions are run in singapore. this one is obviously a small one but pretty cool.

Next week I start school. At SIM.. where i'll be taking my dip in Management studies.. i knw i'm eligible for a direct degree course but i have my eye on this uk uni which only accepts diploma holders.. so going through a longer way. it's not really that long. I'll be done with my degree almost the same time my jc mates will be done with theirs. Of course mine is a bit more ex.. heh .. See laa who ask you fail gp some more. lol

So here's to a great start to my new education experience. Hope I'll enjoy every minute of it. even though i'll have classes from Monday to Saturday.. whyyyyyy.

hmm.. sshould prolly head to bed since it's 4 am in the morning right now. maaann i'm so sleepy.

k thanks for reading. Ciao! 

xoxo ;)

A LEVELS

My mind is going to explode thinking about all this. 

Last friday. I got my results. They weren't that great. Not that I expected them to be. 

ccd/c and u for gp. So basically with a U for gp, I can't go anywhere besides private U.

I was all set to repeat at first.. then i gave up.. so decided on private.

Lalala happy alrdy lah... but then. tdy happened. Not gnna really elaborate but it made me think again. Am I gonna regret this in years to come? What if I could do better? What if??? I don't want to have to ask myself this years down the road or even worse, when I'm studying. 

Can do I better? That's another question I have to ask myself. Strange thing.. I think I can. 

I made a stupid mistake on my phy paper by missing out on a 20 mark question. which got me a d (that's what she said.. haha) 

This is my opportunity for a do over. I think I can do better for Math.. a C just isn't enough in my opinion.

the rest of the subjects, I'm not sure. For gp, I'll have to put a whole lot of effort. which I didn't really do before.

I was discussing w my bro about this.. And he supports me.... But my mom.... another story. Even my dad was like... Go ahead! 

She doesn't what me to repeat cuz she isn't confident I can do better. She doesn't think I'm smart enough. Well.. that's a depressing thought. Doing this is a risk. And with my mom not supporting me in this, I don't know how. I really don't know. I don't know.

I know I was playful doing my a level days. I wasn't fully committed. Which to this day, I regret.

I need support.

I need someone to talk to.

Ya Allah, make me make the right decision. I need you.

Eh hi Wazzuppp?! I start work at 1pm today soo now I'm just chillin... doing some laundry and shitzx..

So.. I turned 19 just this Monday. Didn't do anything special on that day... Just went to work. Hahaha.

But it's fine. Got to hang out with the gfs last Friday to sort of celebrate my bday. Hahaha thankful for friends like them. And thanks mak Atiqah for the delish brownie cake. The kit kat and toblerone on top is the best haha :)

I'm doing better at work.. Gotten a bit more used to it and require less help from the SLs or whatever.

A week back, I actually cried at work cuz i was too stressed, mainly cuz my colleague was being a real bitch. I wanted to maki her right there and then... like really. She alrdy make me cry and then told the other employees and she's doing all this while serving a customer as well. What a bitch right? Ugh.

But then when I was about done, my other work mate told me she's like that one. Almost everyone hates her... All the Malaysians Melayus... and that's a lot of them.. Hahaha

She said that then I'm like ok then... I'll just ignore her.

I was still quite new and confused about a lot of things.. and for her to attack me like that.... I just wanted to punch her in the face. 

But thank god for other colleagues who understand how I feel. They just don't talk about it. I appreciate the fact that my work mate didn't tell me about the bitch's true colours until I saw it with my own eyes. She let me form an opinion on my own. That's cool. Hahaha

K la.. enough rambling. I need to get ready for work. Hope I don't hv to face that bitch.

k byeeeeee :)

Happy belated burfffday to meeeee! Heh ;)

Cold Storage

Hi. How are you? Lol like you can answer like that.
Just got back from work 2 hrs ago.
My feet like want to die alrdy.. stand too long.
I took this job thinking it was simple simple.. but wahlao turn out so complicated sia.
Last time at long jonhn want to count money after shift all very easy.. This one must sort out the credit card shit all. then must go computer key in all the nonsense..
Wow I sound very annoyed.
Maybe it's cuz I'm new. So I got kinda overwhelmed. But it's A LOT to just take in within such a short period of time. I'll only be here for a month. So...I learn all this.. and use it a while only.
I work w A TON of Malaysians.. all from JB. No Singaporean colleagues so far.
It's kinda nice to be able to communicate in Malay but I can't really talk much to them about anything. But I'm starting to talk like a Malaysian.. JB at least. They have this tone when they talk..Now i have it. damn haha
Yeah so.
I don't like listening to people complain about work.
So.. sorry heheh

After this job, I wanna tutor.. Go to an agent or smth. I really would like to use my brain a bit more.

I mean.. I don't mean to look down on these kind of jobs. but srsly.. no Singaporeans sia at my workplace! I can do a lot better.

I've taught people before and I think I can do it. just not JC level...or Math... NO MATH PLEASE!

And other thing, my customers and colleagues most of them think I very young... like 15-16 like that..

Like hello.... I'm almost 19 seeeeyhh (eeeee...why i "seh" like minah)

I don't know if it's a good thing or not.

Kkkk.. I need to sleeeeeep. Goodnight! :))
listen to this cover of trouble by walk off the earth! SOOOO NICEE!!! :D

k byeeeeeeeee

LES MIZZZZ :)

Hey! It's gonna be 2013 in a couple of hours! Can't believe it. The year just flew by.
2012 has definitely been one heck of a year.. A lot of studying, a lot of exams. I'm glad it's all over though. I hope.
I don't wanna be all deep and shit but I've learnt a lot about myself, my character.. the bad side of my character. Definitely trying to change. But oh well, gotta take one step at a time.
Need to be less uptight and more lepak. Not be so defensive and learn to take criticism well.
I don't know what exactly what I'm blabbing about but you get it right?
Hope 2013's gonna be awesome. Many things gonna happen. Results. Start of new school (Hopefully, a good one) :)
It's def gonna be new chapter of my life. Hopefully, I continue to grow and make wiser decisions.

I've yet to find a proper job. Found a super temp one. Hopefully I'll  get a better one after.
So. today I watched Les Mis with Asyiqin! My awesome choir buddy hahaha
We used to sing some of the songs in choir. So it definitely brought back tons of memories.
Anne Hathaway was amazing, even though she barely in the movie hahaha
Her performance of I dreamed a dream was flawless and just so raw. Love it.
I'm gonna be singing this a lot at home. Yes, I will. Sorry, Mom.



Wolverine(LOL) was also very good.
The girl who sang On My Own also best. I love that song so the very much. Poor thing she died :(
Heard T Swift almost got that part. Seriously the scene would a total fail with her. No offence. Imagine her singing with her guitar, about being friend zoned. Hahahaha!



My next favourite song! DO YOU HEAR THE PEOPLE SING!
This song is super epic and very inspiring. When we did the song back when i was in choir, I had no idea what this song was talking about. Just sing lor.
When the poor people stood up and sang this song together before they fought, I wanted to cry. So moving.
This is some random huge ass choir singing the song. I love love love it.



Maybe it's just me and my obsession with musicals, but I LOVE THIS MOVIE A LOT!
Some scenes definitely annoyed me. TOO MUCH SINGING! But then again, it's a movie musical so it didn't bother me that much.
I deffo wanna watch it again! And again and again and again.
AH I LOVE THIS MUSICAL!
k I need to shut up
This is one long ass post but oh well.
This is how I express myself haha
k.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!! HAPPY 2013!
May it be awesome and joyous.
Love you k bye
:)

I need a job

Hey hello.

I'm bored. 

Need a job.

But too lazy to look for one.

So until then, I will keep making these videos which no one will watch haha

Today, I went a little crazy with editing. 

Annotations are pretty rad, I have to say. Heheh.

I was inspired by Carly Rose to do this. It doesn't really sound like her version. Honestly I have no idea what I'm trying to sound like.

My cats were quite entertained and went a little crazy in the background. LOL.

I do this for pure fun. So don't judge.

k that's all I have to say. Thanks for reading! :)

thanks! byeeeeee 

I look to you

hey it's 12.30 in the morning right now and i've been watching youtube videos. ran across a x factor uk contestant performances videos. His name is Jahmene Douglas. He's amazing. 

This performance in particular spoke to me. Every single time anyone in a singing competition sings a song for a loved one who had died, I will cry. Except for Cece Frey's. Hers was just eurghhghhh.

So yeah. He sang it for his brother. So touching. Not to mention, he's super talented :)

I've lost many loved ones in my life. Most of them really close to me. And when someone sings like that, I will just think about them and ball my eyes out. Hahaha.

Sometimes you get caught up in life and forget about the ones who've left. 

Think about them and pray.

Love, Fuzzy.

I love this song so much I typed down the lyrics

 I really love people who are daring enough to put themselves out there

 And do not take themselves too seriously

 This is why I love Glozell

 C'mon, sing along! It's catchy.

 #Haylor Blues

 Haylor, Haylor Harry and Taylor

 I ask my Lord

 Why can't it be me?

 We know it won't last long

 Cuz then she'll write her song

 I must admit that girl can write a hit

 People say that they're just friends

 But unless she's a closet lesbian

 She's made out with Harry Styles

 Then she'll put him in her boyfriend pile

 Boyfriend Pile! Oh! 

 Haylor, Harry and Taylor

 I ask my Lord
 Why can't it be me?

 But instead of doing drugs

 Or drinking a lot of booze

 I sing my song
 I've got the hashtag Haylor blues

 The blues
The blues

 I got the hashtag hay hay hay hey hay (?) haylor blues 

Genius song. Love it! I like Haylor though. Heh.


This song is about Liam. Love this song too:)

I have a 1D obsession. It scares me a bit but it's ok. Haha
I might wanna do a cover of one of these songs heheh.
k bye bye

A LEVELS ARE OVER!!!

HEYYYYYYY YOU! My exams are finally over!!! Gnna have the longest holiday in my entire lifetime.. I think hahaha. Yay okkk can't believe we're finally done with sch uniforms.... gnna kinda miss it though. I love uniformity.. mainly cuz my wadrobe sucks. haha. 

Not looking forward to results.. i mean who is? smart people duh. hate them ugh. Pretty much screwed up most of the papers. But I had very little confidence in myself anyway. I certainly do not foresee getting As or even Bs.. but y'know.. you hope for the best :)

I'll be glad if my results can get me into a uni course. Hopefully it's good enough.

 Hmm. I need a job now! Before I start wasting my life watching ID videos. oh wait, i already do. hahaha i'm kind of obsessed with them now. I started during my exam period lol. not a distraction or anything...

I was so close to putting up a poster of them on my bedroom wall. but I stopped myself, NO FAZI! DON'T GO THERE. oh thank god. i think this is the first time I feel like an actual teenage girl.. falling in love with 5 boys. all at once. hahaha

With that said, I would like to wish all my a lvl peeps happy partying like there's no tmr (preferably at home, dont go clubbing pls) And for those who are not done, ALL THE BEST! :D

K now for singing time.. lol i dont know why upload these vids. I have no idea who watches them since they're unlisted. but oh well.. I find it fun.

And man do i wish I knew how to play the guitar. I think I'll look super cool. hahahahah no. 

this is little things by who??? ONE DIRECTION!!! yayyyy! k bye bye ~

loving him was red red red

this is what happens when u sing a song you're not familiar with hahah tons of mistakes but i like the song so what the hey

the awkwardness in this video is just....... hahaha

 k bye :)

Hello. I'm back again. I don't know why but I've been in a mood to blog a lot recently. Heheh.

So I went to school on Friday. cuz I only had 1-day MC. Boooo! But it's okay, cuz i got to spend my Friday with these awesome people. 

I think most of my peers will agree that school has been shitty lately. I don't know why. I mean the workload is still about the same, for me at least cuz I never do my tutorials. Hahaha. But the enormous number of tutorials(lessons) is starting to take a toll on me. I do not have that great of an attention span, so when u put 3 tutorials back-to-back in day, I will die of boredom. That's why we have lectures, to sleep. Lose focus here and there. but if u sleep during tutorials, you must stand at the back of the class.

 Econs lectures ~~~ nag nag nag~~~ scold scold scold ugh

and now, the HOD walks around, checking our essays(which I never do) Haiz..... why????

Sorry if I complained a bit too much. Just wanted to rant a bit. hahah

K la, I have religious sch in a few hrs. Better head to bed now! BYE!!!! :)

 

sick sucks

Hey wassup?!! How u doin'? I'm good thanks. Actually not really. I feel like shit right now cuz i'm sick. No fever, just the annoying cough and nose blockage. To avoid spreading the germs, i'm skipping sch today. Plus, i'm getting pretty sick of school. So, perfect excuse to skip sch ah! Hahaha. I know this is prolly the one of the worst days to skip cuz the timetable is pretty packed. But whatevs.

Kay, what shall I talk about? How about my shitty ct2 grades? Yeah sure why not!

Phyics: 40/100

Chemistry: 51/100

Math: 64/100

Econs: 45/100

GP: 58/100

So yeah, BDSEC. That sounds horrible. If i got these grades for A levels, i jump down alrdy lah. Hahahah jkjk. Suicide isnt the solution. Hahhahah. But honestly, i'm pretty disapointed with my grades. Maybe i should spend less time on twitter or my most recent obsession, instagram! Oh i love instagram!!! Yeah, maybe should use less of that :)

K, i have nothing else to say. It's quite tiring to blog with my phone. But ah wells~ it get things done.

Gotta go to polyclinic to get mc~~ bye byeee :)

AND ALL THE OTHER BOYS TRY TO CHAAAASE ME ;)

EH HAALO AH!

lol i recorded another video. actually quite fun uh. hahahah and it's CALL ME MAYBEEE! I think it's the best song that ever existed. but I can't sing it ahahah

I'll let u watch the video and u judge for yourself k hahaha

it was fun though :)

K byeeee I need to get back to homework oh how fun! -__-

so anyway, this is later in the day. was doing homework then got bored. so another video!

hahahah i need to do better things with my life

ah well~~

I doubt anyone's gonna see these videos anyway so yeah

this one is torn by natalie imbru... something hahah love this song!

this cover actually contains BACKGROUND MUSIC! woah woah such an upgrade! hahah

k byeeee again lol

common tests

Hello there :D

CT2s recently ended ah so awesome. and tmr is youth day holiday! actually today is youth day~~ HAPPY YOUTH DAY! Felt really bad for poly students though, no youth day holiday. but heck, u guys' holidays are so awesome and long anyway. Us jc students just had our june holiday and all we did was study. hahaha who am i kidding? i didn't study as much as I wanted to. heh it's whatever. Hmm should I give a review of the papers? ah why not?

First, was econs....... in the classroom. It was freezing! And there was another thing too, but I cannot say ;)

After doing the first case study, I wanted to give up and just go to sleep. hahah. I wrote a whole bunch of crap which is what I do most of the time. Economics is my only hope though out of all the subjects I take. Hope I pass :)

Second, was chem. in hall. aw shit the paper was so demoralizing. both paper 1 and 2 were bad. Hope I pass but the likely chance of that happening is pretty pretty slim hahah

Third, was physics. I honestly think it was alright. hahah i always think it's alright then end up failing or getting an E. lol my physics sucks! but watching tbbt always make me get interested in physics. I wished my physics was as good as Sheldon though. ah well~

Last paper was math. it was kinda okay i guess. not gonna get an A but most likely pass lah.

then after that, 11s16 went bbq-ing! It was fun! the pool so nice. I wanna go swimming! then they brought in the beer. that made me kind of uncomfortable. in addition, miche told me the eggs and beer were making them erect. ewwwww! hahahah. k i'm tired. gonna hit the sack in a bit. byeeeee :)

HIIIII!!!!! I'M ON YOUTUBE! lol not really.

HALOOO!!! A week of the June hols has ended!!! AH.. and it's only 3rd june now. lol funny ah?

Have been going to sch for the past week to study. wah, very hardworking hor. hahah my foot! So unproductive, but at least more productive than at home, where all I do is LEPAK. hehehe.

Anyway, I finally figured out how to upload my ipod videos to my computer. Yeah, after like 3.5 years, I figured it out. Genius over here! Hahaha.

So yeah, I experimented with it and recorded a video of me singing. I know I'm not the best singer. but y'know, you work with what u have (lol, whatever that's supposed to mean). It's extremely dark cuz well, it's not rlly a video camera, it's my ipod nano. So yeah, this is payphone. hahahah :)

Hmm.. I really wish I knew how to play the freaking guitar. It's so awkward to sing without any background music. In the video, I started hitting the table to avoid the awkwardness. hahaha. I'm waiting for the video to finish uploading so I'm still here blabbing dunno about what.

My parents have been having problems. It's actually my dad acting up. I dunno why, he's trying so hard to piss my momma off so many times. Like srsly. Yesterday, they went to the airport to send her sister off to somewhere (umrah). then he suddenly disappeared. My mom and his siblings all tried calling him but he switched off his phone. stupid or what? So, my mom had to take the mrt home all by herself. this was at 11 plus at night, mind you. Turned out, he went home all by himself and just left my mom there. His excuse was he didn't know his phone was off, which is ridiculous. You go somewhere with someone, you will surely not forget to go home with that person. especially when, she's ur friggin wife! Ugh, talking about this rlly pisses me off. I dunno what his intentions are but I wish he would just quit screwing with my mom's feelings. He's a jerk, he has always been. now, when they argue, they keep using the d word. or in malay, the c word. haizz.. I thought we were over this phase like a decade ago. but guess not. Ah whatever.

K that's all. Hope you enjoyed my payphone! hehehehe buhbyeeee!!

I should be in bed

Hi there. It's 12.30 in the morning now. I have sch in a couple of hours.

I feel bad for rarely updating this blog. Since Miche has keeps pestering me to write something, I shall try ok. I read her and Kate's blog, so I guess I shall be fair and update mine. But I'm so boring, my life at least. All I do is school. Meh. I don't go out cuz I waste enough time doing nothing at home. CT2 is coming, GP lah. Then it's June hols, which is pretty much hell. I have no idea how i'm gnna be able to squeeze in all that studying in one month, mostly cuz I study very slowly. I need at least one day to complete 1 chapter and all I'm doing is reading notes. I need to come up with a better strategy so that I can study effectively and not screw up my CTs like how I did in PR1. And.. I need to quit the internet and tv shows. Since the seasons of all my fav shows are ending, it's a good thing! so, I won't have to spend so many hrs watching tv shows, just as long as I do not get hooked on another show. heh. anyway, did Elena rlly choose Stefan?! my friend told me so..... I love Stelena! but I find it a bit hard to believe. Oh well.. Erm.. I wish I had pictures to upload or smth but I don't. Sorry. K I need to head to bed. Gnight! Thanks for reading:)

hello there!

Eh hi..

i know i haven't been here a lot. ttly forgot about the existence of this blog hahah.

'A's coming!!!! AHHHH! freaking out right now!

I really don't wish to talk about my CTs which i pretty much screwed up. but nyeh.. why not? So..

Math 50/100

Chem 39/100

Physics 44/100

Econs 32/55

GP 50/100

So yeah. passed 3/5 of the subjects. I expected more for Math but whatever lah.

So i'm gonna try to work hard now. I say that but here I am updating my blog which no one reads! LOL

K lah. I don't know when I'll return here again. but tata~~~

Missing these ladies a lot lot :(

<3

Goodnight <3

homework, why u sucha pain in the ass?

Eh hi! school starts in 2 days.. and I'm not even near finishing my homework.

And what am I doing now? this.
I really don't enjoy doing homework, especially when it's difficult.
I'd rather study than do homework.
The J2 timetable suck balls! like srsly, no life seh like this. sch end so late. tuesday's the worst. but what to do.. just tahan till end of year la..

I think imma try to do physics.. 8 chapters of revision w/s to do.. kidding me, bro?
ah.. just pretend no gp homework la. einar also never say anything. hehe..

k la. since I've got nothing else to say, imma go now:)
homework? nah..

k this a make-up video. It's michelle phan's sis-in-law i think. she transformed herself into Drake.. pretty cool :)

k bye~~